One of the Lucky Ones
I am one of the lucky ones.. I let my trauma dictate my life for over a decade. The flashbacks, the reminders, the triggers. Back then I didn't believe PTSD could be a possibility because I wasn't in combat. I was wrong. It took veterans telling me it was ok to not be ok, it took counseling for me to confront my demons. Even then I still self medicated. It would be wrong for me to take a medication for my struggles right? But everyone drinks. I can just go to the store and get something to numb myself and I won't have to worry about someone seeing my medical history or even worse, think I can't do the job or that I'm weak right?? Wrong. I know that there is still a very big stigma in my job to discuss my feelings. To say that I'm not ok. But you know what? I finally realized that it takes STRENGTH to admit I needed help. To admit I couldn't fight this fight alone. So I stopped fighting. I found my own faith. I made some of my worst calls and hardest memories my "why". I realized how lucky I was to be able to be there for those people in those terrible moments and have hope that I was able to bring them a little bit of peace. I know that it still hurts but I now honor their memory instead of using it as an excuse to be numb. Instead of it taking from me I now let it drive me. Is it easy? Absolutely not, it is a struggle every day on some level and I now know that it is something that I will have to continue to work on. When I finally humbled myself and was willing to get help I chose to go to rehab. I chose this because I had a drinking problem and I was not only hurting myself but I was hurting my family, my relationships, and worst of all I hurt people that were just trying to help me. I was becoming the opposite of the person who started this job and I had lost my way. Rehab finally gave me a foundation for my fight. Counseling. loved ones, and admitting I cannot do any of this alone keeps me on the right path. I now go to work feeling like I have a new purpose, that no matter the call or how horrible a scene can be that I am still blessed to be there. Honored to be the person that is there for someone on their worst day. I choose not to waste another day. I choose not to numb. Why? Because I am one of the lucky ones..
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Hey, I just placed an order today for a men’s bracelet and a mala wrap. Really like your products and your mission and mindset. I’ve purchased two bracelets in the past and just replacing them since they’ve broken from wear and tear. Just wanted to say thank you for putting yourself and your skills and support out there for everyone. We all have dark days and struggles but together we can reach the light.
I think the last time I ordered the colors were depending on you with suggestions accepted, if that’s still the case I’d like to say I’m fan of the light to dark wrap you have your insta, and a fan of green in general along with next rings green Monday movement. Either way I’m good though, take all the creative license you can. Again thank you and keep up the fight!